Good Friday

Driving around KC today I saw in front of nearly every church that I passed, a large cross draped in black cloth. A powerful picture. Tonight my team sang the “Hymns of Revelation”, the songs found in the book of Revelation, that are sung in heaven. Lately my favorite has been Revelation 1.5-6

Jesus Christ, the faithful witness, the firstborn from the dead, and the ruler over the kings of the earth. To Him who loved us and washed us from our sins in His own blood, and has made us kinds and priests to His God and Father, to Him be glory and dominion forever and ever. Amen

We sang this passage, developing each phrase for the first hour of our set, and I found my heart so much more engaged, and had so much more language to sing due to the time I’ve spent in the book of Hebrews lately. He is the radiance of the Father’s glory, the exact representation of the Father, or as Misty would say, “God expressing Himself through the face of Jesus.” It’s amazing, Moses, the deep & intimate friend of Jehovah cried out let me see You! and only caught a glimpse of His back as He passed by…..no one could see Him and live. But He came and showed us who He was, did nothing He didn’t see the Father doing, said nothing He wasn’t saying, yet did not consider equality with God as something to be grasped; though He was the very Son of God, the second person of the Trinity.

*My verse for the week has been Hebrews 2.9-10; singing it in my quiet times, and meditating on it in the prayer room or as I sing in the spirit, I feel a stirring deep inside that I haven’t felt in some time.

But we see Jesus, who was made a little lower than the angels, now crowned with glory and honor because He suffered death, so that by the grace of God He might taste death for everyone…..

This weekend I might elaborate more on my thoughts but for now will just say how much hope has been strengthened within while singing this passage! I already have victory over death and the grave! And if the author of my salvation was made perfect through suffering, it makes it much easier to carry this pain in my flesh. He is a faithful, compassionate, and understanding High Priest.

Oh the blood of Jesus, that covers all my sins!!

like an apple tree among the tree’s of the wood, so is my Beloved

Well needless to say this has been a bit of an intense week. Monday through Wednesday was our monthly Global Bridegroom Fast, spent with a raging headache that climaxed Monday afternoon. Waking from nap to find the pressure had intensified rather than decreased behind my left eye resulting in complete lack of vision in that eye for a period of time. Several hours later found me and Brooke at Truman’s E.R. To say I responded strongly to whatever it was they gave me in the i.v. would be an understatement. I found myself talking to the nurse doing the Cat scan about Katie Bennet’s song, “Under the Apple Tree” and the comparison in the Song of Solomon to Jesus. I’d been humming it during the cat scan, and opened my eyes to find a large apple tree painted on the ceiling.  Back in my room later I told Brooke, rather sluggishly, “they might think I’m crazy, but every time she walks into that room she’s going to think about Jesus!”

The last few days I’ve been recovering from that night and trying to adjust to the pain medication prescribed to me by the E.R. doctor, it’s been an interesting adjusting! From nausea, feeling lightheaded or dizzy, to different levels of itching, well let’s just say that it’s cemented in my mind the decision to never do drugs.

SO an intense week,yes, but I am not defeated! I fight the battle in  my soul with violence, and do anything necessary to keep my spirits lifted. For example….. growing dino’s! I put them in my vases with flowers 😀             dinosaur-2.jpg         

Hebrews 4.14-16 Therefore since we have a great high priest who has gone through the heavens, Jesus the Son of God, let us hold firmly to the faith we profess. For we do not have a high priest who is unable to sympathize with our weakness, but we have one who has been tempted in every way, just as we are – yet was without sin. Let us then approach the throne of grace with confidence, so that we may receive mercy and find grace to help us in our time of need.

Stuart defines ‘Grace’ as the strength to say ‘yes’ to righteousness.  I continue to come boldly before my Father, knowing that Jesus has great zeal to judge the sickness in my body. I will not be moved.